Glitterati

I'm so excited it's been snowing, lately.
Last night, when it started, I just sat at my kitchen table and watched the light cast by the streetlight that revealed the snow.
Sometimes it almost looked like it was coming down to earth in slow motion, like some movie where this moment is a turning point in the character's life. Sometimes it would just swirl around normally, and every once in a while it would whip around and it would hammer the ground and the fence and the trees.
Today it's like all the things that we have to worry about for our planet were gone (or at least covered up for a while. A reminder that the beauty of nature perseveres, even though we're chipping away at it with our greed.

I have this desire.
This kind of secret, really intense desire:

I want to have someone who is good at taking photos come and just take a bunch of pictures of me.  I feel like I don't have good pictures of myself and I would just like a couple good ones.  Although, I must admit, I'd probably feel horribly self-conscious and silly.

This would be after I got my hair cut (assuming it's good), of course. hehe.

I'm not crying out for anyone to volunteer, I'd just thought I'd put it out there.

To Colorado.
For my boy.

I'll be back in a week!

Have a splendid time while I'm gone!

.Now I have real pearls.
Cool?  Yes.  I enjoy pearls.

Today I think I'll get my haircut...

Be loved, but never love.
Attatch but never combine
Trip but never fall, to be broken is better than to be shattered
Tell him your strengths but never your past
Be trustworthy but never trust.
Be cracked but not open.

That's kind of how I feel.
And I'm afraid.
How odd it is to be in love for the first time and be afraid.  Be exhilirated and happy beyond belief and dazzled and in awe of all of it, but be unwilling to feel all of those things because...
What if it goes away?
What if I mess it up?
What if what if what if...

But I DO love him, I have come to that conclusion.
And he DOES love me.

I just hope he keeps on loving me.

Oh Ellen, we ARE dramatic.